Depressive Episode, Pt. 2

Uhhh, hmm
One of the dudes I used to make music with here in the underground done made it
So why can't I be happy for him?
Oh yeah, we had a lil' fallout just before I started making records with Calvinmadeit
So fast forward he rose to fame
Now when he uses a subliminal in his records, I feel like he's referring to me
Serves me right, I've been really badmouthing him, see
I don't think it really matters who did who wrong at this point
Congratulations, I'm glad you made it my g

I root for you still, but that ship sailed, our friendship failed
It's 'bout time that I got shit off my chest, you got the last laugh, you've been hailed
I hope you're well, wish you the best
Well me? I been really depressed
Can't only be the heartbreak giving me stress

Oh yeah, and I ain't even talked about the heartbreak, yes
So see, back in freshman year, the first day of college I met this girl umm, we'll call her T
T was outta my league
But it's sumn' about T that really intrigued me
And I fell in love with T
And I told my roommate Japhate, "G, I think I love this girl
Like I don't really know her that well..."
He said, "Let me stop you right there
It'll end in tears!"
And after two years?
We've established two facts, yeah
T will never be my chick
And Japhate may be psychic

Guess I'll just stay in the friend zone, which got me here in this zone
She say she can't date me cause my motives are not merely to bone
Of course I'm rewording, but is sumn' along the lines of I'm a great lad
And I would make a great dad, a husband
So she wants me as her friend till the end
And she can't afford to break my heart and make me sad, she says she'll feel bad
Well guess what? You failed miserably
And this whole depressive episode is literally your doing
I'd rather tell you how I'm doing on your phone
But I don't think you'll understand, it'd be weird too, 'cause it's been long
You'd think I would have moved on by now
So I'll just stick to this song
And try to stay strong

But more on that later, I'm kinda faded
Just with everything else man, I'm lonely just like Akon
I used to think I'm a lone wolf, I'm just alone, ouf!
Prolly why every meltdown I have is on these updates on my phone too
'Cause when I want to tell it to somebody, nobody comes to mind
And that's no disrespect to those that do care, it's just really hard to find y'all
When I am really low
Well, you did say you'd be there only when I ain't need you to be there, so I guess I'll never know

Try to stop me before part three
That's if I myself makes it to part three
Okay maybe I'm being dramatic, but I've had a constant pain in my chest area since January, I don't know kuti chii
And juggling all this with my school load as well
I see you got a smile on, haha, Sbwl
I don't know man, glass is half full, everything that follows now can only be heaven, 'cause I've already been through hell