Free

I'm just a baby, still a baby trying to figure it out
My intuition couldn't listen, but it's listening now

And I'm hearing me saying it after years of not saying it
I was drowning in waves of it, like all of the time
Kissing my sanity, like "Shut up, Caroline, you aren't crazy"
And now I know why

It wasn't easy, it wasn't patient
Having the arrow, but not knowing where to aim it
Out in the open, it isn't painless
And it may never be
But this time I get to be free, free
Free, free
It isn't free being free
And it may never be

And now I'm sitting on the couch and Lauren's holding my head
(Laying on the couch, holding my head)
Now there's before and there is after, that's what she said
(There is before and there is after)

And I'm hearing me saying it after years of not saying it
I was drowning in waves of it, like all of the time
Kissing my sanity, like "Shut up, Caroline, you aren't crazy"
Oh, and now I know why

It wasn't easy, it wasn't patient
Having the arrow, but not knowing where to aim it
Out in the open, it isn't painless
And it may never be
But this time I get to be free, free
Free, free
It isn't free being free
And it may never be

It may never be
It may never be
At least I get to be free
This time I get to be free, free

I had to know I'm not alone to let it out
I had to let a little go to feel it now
And when I'm lonely and the tears come back around
I got my love, I got my friends to hold it down
I had to know I'm not alone to figure out
Everything is not my fault somehow
And now I'm more than when I had to go without
That I won't leave her now
Say you can be my family and I will hold you close
If someone understands me
Then finally, I know