Dying to live

Can't lie, there was times I used to pray for death
Sipping holy water just to break a sweat
Feel the devil in my ear, I've been praying less
Will you save me a prayer or will you save your breath

Make the wrong moves, bound to make a mess
Say the wrong things, should be saying less
Insecurities loud, yeah, I was playing deaf
They was plotting on my moves, I was playing chess
Say a prayer for me
And pray it's not too late for me
Still remember everything that you said to me
Gotta want it for yourself, ain't no saving me
So say a prayer for me, and pray it's not too late for me
Still remember everything that you said to me

Told papa, I got him when he slipping
Told my mama, I got him when he tripping
Paid the cost every time I made a visit
Hurt my heart when I lost him to addiction
Pray for death and it's bound to hit you different
Say I'm blessed but a part of me is missing
All them voices make it hard for me to listen
Praying hard on something to keep me busy
The dice that we rolling getting real heavy
The cash that we raking is real steady
The fam I got with me get real deadly
All these bitches is pretty but so petty
If you die today, would they notice you
I probably live a lie, never know the truth
So before all my plans long overdue
I'll keep it ten, play my hand like I'm supposed to do
Say a prayer for me, and pray it's not too late for me
Still remember everything that you said to me
Gotta want it for yourself, ain't no saving me
So say a prayer for me, and pray it's not too late for me
Still remember everything that you said to me

So much on my mind, but I need you to listen
We done did over time, could've gave you what you missing
You won't have to run if you played your position
Ripped out my heart and you just left that shit dripping

Feels like the devil's working overtime I'm tripping
I overthink sometimes, my brain me on a mission
Stuck up in my ways, I know my people feel the distance
I try to give my all, I guess I'm lacking what you missing

Fuck these other bitches are they really gonna ride for me
Put the drama to the side and spend this time with me
I try to brush it off, it keeps reminding me
I aint tripping, it's a blessing in disguise for me

So say a prayer for me, and pray it's not too late for me
Still remember everything that you said to me
Gotta want it for yourself, ain't no saving me
So say a prayer for me, and pray it's not too late for me

Still remember everything that you said to me