Haunted Heart

Never really thought it'd hurt
Guess I couldn't make it work
Baby that was just a lie
Staining all the rugs
Hiding all this dirt
Never really know what's mine
Cept all of this wasted time
Wasted in pursuit
Of some twisted fruit
Hanging from a branch that's dying
Where go all your self respect
Tell me how things left unchecked
Somehow seem to find a way
To ruin yesterday
Time's gone since I held you dear
Feelings that were not too clear
Fogging up the rear view mirror
I'm in the street still tryna steer
So, oh where did she go
Where went the me
That I knew right before
Said, hold on
To a pane that only shows
What I thought I needed then
Look at how the roses grow
I thought I heard
Her voice it's
Calling me, calling me
Who made the choice
To leave behind
Someone worth promising
Who knows why fools
Rush in
To make real some harmful dream
Might call it love
But that's just
Misnomered remembering

I self actualized
Rising above the tide
Only way to see
How good I could be
Mind was a rolling stone
Roaming the world alone
Felt no good on my own
Then I realized I was home
My own best thing
Unbroken, beloved inside of me
I grow I sing
How life is renewed
It's uncovering
No need to avoid
Resonating with the past
The frequencies employed
Can break the hourglass
Breaking loose
The dusty proof
Which clings to shoes
That pass
Out of towns
With no real bounds
Where laughs are always last
Where times were mostly sad
Now mourning leads to dance
Can't even roll my eyes
At the ways I used to act
What was done before
Led me to promised land
Right from Abba's hand
Now I know I can cos
I know I heard
A voice it's
Calling me, calling me
I made the choice
To leave behind
Nothing that's worth keeping
God knows why fools
Rush in
Unawake, they're still half asleep
Won't call it love
If it doesn't bring
Faith, hope, and charity
Seeing clearer
More clarity
More mature
Like a ripening
Moved away from
Those childish things
To abide in the vine