dodged a bullet

It's the end of a year that's full of regrets
And wishing that I didn't have to play pretend
But the one that I put through the test was you

And if you're gonna spend money then spend it on your friends
Don't put up lights on a house that can't make rent
And if you're gonna turn 20, better start asking when
The world is gonna make sense again

I thought I would die to have you
Trigger at the ready but I never pulled it
I'm still breathing, yeah I'm still breathing
I think that I dodged a bullet

Double meanings and killer words
Blame it on the way my mind works
High on the hope of you saying maybe

But when you don't know where you are don't walk away
When there's fire in your soul, don't put out the flame
I know that you would never ask me to stay
So I force myself to stay away

I thought I would die to have you
Trigger at the ready but I never pulled it
I'm still breathing, yeah I'm still breathing
I think that I dodged a bullet

I can't run
Don't wanna die on this hill
I want you in my life but what if it kills?
I want you in my life but what if it kills me?

Is it enough if I never find the one?
Am I asking too much for a little bit of love?
Am I asking too much for a little bit of love?
Is it asking too much for a little bit of love?

I thought I would die to have you
Trigger at the ready but I never pulled it
I'm still breathing
I think that I dodged a bullet