Alone

Help me, I am so lonely
Help me, I am so lonely
My whole family just turned they back on me
I ran to God like why is this happening to me

It was happening, them demons was after me
Never understood it like why are they mad at me
But the word says in your household there will be enemies
I don't call them my friends, I call them my frenemies

I mean they are fam, but I treat them like my enemies
Only a few friends will be there till the end
I forgive them, for they do not know what they do
And it was hard to do, I thought about it

And I knew that it was you
I cried about it, I shed many tears
No one was calling me, no happy new year
The situation made me stronger

I know I belong to the Father
I didn't want to be here any longer
I understood it, it took baby steps
I humbled myself, then the baby laughed

Help me, I am so lonely. I'm falling, I'm falling, I'm falling
Help me out

Even though the road was long, he said take my hand
Son I love you

This was all part of the plan, I mean it hit me
Like a bag of rocks my heart stood still
Then my heart dropped
Is it possible that I can turn back the clock

Silly me, the new me is here
The shepherd knows his crops
I keep praising Him and I do it non-stop
I put my faith in Him and I call Him pops

Things are getting better, I was never lonely
Just felt like I was
He's a real dad, the other one be acting phony
Back then I did my dirt all by my lonely

Now when I feel alone I ask the lord to come hold me
We are in the flesh, and the flesh it's weak
We reap what we sow, we sow what we reap

Help me, I am so lonely. I'm falling
Help me, I am so lonely. I'm falling
Help me out

I hit the lowest of lows man. I fell into a deep depression because of things that was going on in my life
Just trying to find hope and validation and all these other external things

Couldn't find it in the money, couldn't find it in the bottle
Couldn't find it in other people
I was desperate
But in my desperation man I feel like God was able to show me bruh

I'm not going to find what I'm looking for in external places
That confidence and that love that I'm looking for has to start within
And as I begin to work on myself, I begin to love myself, take care of myself
Appreciate what makes me me

And I encourage anybody else in this same struggle
You were fearfully and wonderfully made by God fam
Find what's unique about you and lean all the way into that
And let that uniqueness shine in this world man despite what anybody else has to say or think

You are valued, you are appreciated, and you are loved
That love starts within you
Be encouraged family
Blessings