Still Searching

I've been here about a
Month alone
I tell myself that I'll be over it
All if you call me hit up my phone
I'm losing it all saying to
You that I can fall again
Cause I just want this to be
My behavioral trend I'm
Dying inside I don't want to lie to you
But I can't say it cause I'd get a sigh from you
I can't fly cause my
Angel wings died and

I'm losing it in my head in the
Background of it all
I continue with the building I do
Until I finally fall off the wall
I'm watching I'm waiting to wake up
Before I hit the ground
Locations in mind 'til pain runs through me and my
Mental plunges straight into the ground
I'm looking for better I'm searching real
Hard to meet with the grind
But nothing I know, and nothing I say will
Satiate what I find

I sit on the sofa waiting
For the day to arrive when
Instant regret is what I get and the
Tick comes now to drain the blood from my head
You know what I'm done I got another
Empty promise right here my
Life is a waking nightmare but
Mistakes, the one thing that I really fear
Cause I crossed the line
I got a facade where I
Keep pretending like I'm better no I just keep
Leading other people on 'til I'm better than here

I'm losing it in my head in the
Background of it all
I continue with the building I do
Until I finally fall off the wall
I'm watching I'm waiting to wake up
Before I hit the ground
Locations in mind 'til pain runs through me and my
Mental plunges straight into the ground
I'm looking for better I'm searching real
Hard to meet with the grind
But nothing I know, and nothing I say will
Satiate what I find

I'm still searching for a better life