Reflections

(Hey, Can we talk?
Whats going on man
You seem down)

I don't wanna be the guy whos talking to my past
But
I guess I'm gonna have to
Cause I've got nothing

Staying up to late and my head's gone
Still got walls stood tall from the last one
Don't wanna die
But I'm getting high
Feel like I'm gonna explode oh

All the pain in my mind
Is always amplified by the fact that I
Couldn't hide
Anything deep down
And I let it all out now
And it builds up every night
And I can't let it go it's a fight
Constant battles in my mind
I can't let go any time
I just know that I'm alive
I just know that I survived
And it's a surprise cause
I was 4 years old and
He had a knife
Mm
Didn't know where to go
I was so damn alone
Let it all out now
I'm about now
Feel like I'm broke
But I don't wanna be alone anymore
Let it all go in my brain and I'm on tour
Don't know why I'm on the floor now
Cause I'm bleeding out

I got 2 people that I wanna say sorry to
First one is my mum
Sorry for all of the shit that I caused
I was just a kid and I felt ignored
So I caused shit that you couldn't ignore
And
That wasn't right of me so I'm sorry for all of that shir
(All that shit)

And the second is my ex
That was a mess
Didn't know where to go in that situation
So I just caused loads of shit and I didn't mean to do that
And I'm so sorry
So sorry for all that shit
I'm so glad that you're happy
I went so god damn toxic towards the end of our relationship
And I know that that's on me
I should've seen through all the lies that they told me
And I don't know what to do anymore
Feel like I'm Obi
Like a chosen Wan
Ah fuck I wish I wasn't gone
I wish I could go back in time and tell me
And slap myself across the face
And make sure I knew that me and you
We were done and I should leave you to it
Leave you to do what you were doing
And
I
Didn't
Still got my girl to message you
And shes not my girl anymore
And now I realised how bad of a situation
I caused for you and your man
I don't know what to do anymore
I wish this shit never even began
Cause I was going back then
And I don't know where I'm gonna go now
Feel like I am just on ther floor bleeding out
I don't know what to do now
Imma just let it all out
Let it all out
Ah!

(Are you seriously blaming me?
And which ex are you talking asbout?
Are you talking about the one who died her hair blonde?
Like
Don't blame me fopr this shit
I didn't do anything
Seriously what the fuck!?
Like, it's not my fault)

Oh but it is!
All the lies in my mind are all your fault
All the shit in my head is all your fault
All the people we've hurt is all your fault
See
You made them decisions to hurt them
You made them decisions to fuck up
You made them decisions to leave the people you love thhe most
Ah shit!
You're the one in the wrong
You're the one who made me feel like shit
You're the one who made me feel like this

(Damn
I'm so sorry
I really am)

All I get's a sorry!?
You made me what I am!
And all I get's a fucking sorry!?

(Look I've said I'm sorry
I don't know what you want from me
I've not done anything yet!)

Then don't fucking make the same mistakes!
Please
Please don't make the same mistakes
Please