Manipulation by Design

Why should I apologize for the monster I've become
No one apologized for making me this way
Left alone in a desolate hell
Shrouded by deceit
Not knowing a future of jubilation
Vehemence but a veil of lies
Corruption surrounded by these thorns
This burning ice that deafens the soul
This cooling flame that blinds my senses
Warmth I failed to recognize as it's something that I never knew
Restrained by constant fear
Rejection has become a valiant companion
A vizard to blend in with your façade
This disease ridden mind of mine is the result of your actions
If only you could understand it
Understand that I did not choose to have this
Un-break my mind

Un-break my mind
Reverse the time so I can live this life
This life of mine
You swore you'd be there for me
But that was a fallacy
This clarity has become reality
Un-break my mind so I can finally be free

False beliefs that should never have been given
Injected with your sense of stability
Molded into the remnants of a forgotten ego
The vivid evocation of my being further fragments my sanity

Un-break my mind
Reverse the time so I can live this life
This life mine
You swore you'd be there for me
But that was a fallacy
This clarity has become reality
Un-break my mind so I can finally be free

Who knew that abandonment could be so freeing
My future has been released
This new found perception
Will guide me to rise from the ashes

I am the one who survived in your shadow
I no longer accept your betrayal
I deny you space in mind
I will sacrifice all of the essence
Even if it means I break
I will not wish death on you because you're already dead to me