Politicin' Pain

I done cried so many tears
Had to fight so many fears
Spent my days in the rain
Left my pain in the drain
And still ain't learned nothing from my years

I done paid for my mistakes
Price tags on every consequence reside inside the bank
No confiding, I stay silent when outside cause it ain't safe
Common sense to compensate, obstacles that I create
I've seen passion pain and poison witnessed stress and paranoia
They said death was coming for ya think I met him round the corner

I was just a kid, bones in my closet, closed off my mama
Shit every day was problems, and still to this day it haunts me I mean
I plant the seed but that shit never grew I acted like I never knew
Saying I'm gon' change but shit I never do
You the one to blame
Always pointing fingers, but don't check ya aim
You acting like that man in your past
Ain't even the same but what's his name

I done cried so many tears
Had to fight so many fears
Spent my days in the rain
Left my pain in the drain
And still ain't learned nothing from my years

Yea
Forever cursed I write my best shit when I'm at my worst
Me be the reason most my bridges burnt
Tend to stoke the flame and look away like it ain't me to blame
I done knocked my head so many times how could I be the same
How many times am I going to trip over the trap I laid
Self sabotaging ways product of how I was raised
I stay silent I ain't used to politicin' pain
Way too used to ducking problems I got demons I cant shake
Looking in that mirror
I see the reason a lot of shit don't change
I been stuck I've been running in the mud for days
Losing touch with everything I thought would never fade
All the colors turning gray
I done gave it all away
Damn

I done cried so many tears
Had to fight so many fears
Spent my days in the rain
Left my pain in the drain
And still ain't learned nothing from my years