Another Way

I guess I'll have to find another way
To numb the pain until it goes away
But how am I supposed to know the way
When every step I take alone is make or break?

Ya, when you look at yourself in the mirror
What do you see other than fear?
Is it who you could be in a meaningful way?
Maybe that is the reason why God put you here
So don't be discouraged, I know you've felt hopeless,
I know you're afraid that one day you'll get roped in
And sail away coasting the sea of those old memories
From the past, back when you would relapse in a moment
Your purpose is sewn in with God's hands,
And that's why all your faith shouldn't fold in
Cuz he wants to mold as you aim to let go of
The pain in your Soul on the road you're approaching
Just look at the patience he's had as you've walked and collapsed,
And got up on the path to keep going
Your past isn't holding you back if you trust God
And pass the distractions of all your emotions

I guess I'll have to find another way
To numb the pain until it goes away
But how am I supposed to know the way
When every step I take alone is make or break?

I've realized I can't grasp what love is
(Can't grasp what love is)
If I'm so closed and numb and broken
(Numb and broken, numb and broken)
Ya, try to jot about trauma down in my notes app
To let it out in the hopes I'll never go back
Into the thick of it, moments I hated sitting in
Feelings that have been lingering since I was just a kid
I would run from that and not turn back
Cuz if I did, maybe I would end up stuck in the grasp
Of depression's hands, or rejection and man,
I don't wanna have to wrestle with those ever again
And so I numb it out (numb it out, out)
Deep down (deep down, down)
But I've found (ya, I've found, found)
That that doesn't help
And so I need to stop overthinking,
I cause my own problems by trying to fix them
I'm only a human that numbs his emotions
Till they bubble up, up, up, up and away

I guess I'll have to find another way
To numb the pain until it goes away
But how am I supposed to know the way
When every step I take alone is make or break?
Oh but I don't wanna find another way
To numb the pain, I want it gone away
But if it doesn't leave, can I be safe?
If I step in faith maybe I won't break
So God I'll take a step to you...