Half Living (feat. ADEL)

I feel like I'm half-living
I ain't slept in two weeks, I'm only half-kidding
Mama told me "come home," Papa told me I'm fine
Tell my friends that I'm good, told the homies I'm lying
I ain't stressed, I'm too weak? That's only half of it
I can't stand on two feet? I'm going half a step
Wanna stay on the road, you gon' stay by my side?
If I got no where to go, you gon' leave me behind?
Got a lot on my mind
But trazadone is slowing all the other motions tonight
Rolling on and on and falling into morning, I might
Roll another one and pray that I don't wake up at all
Why'd you take it at all?
Medication's on the table and it's waiting to save you
But every time you take it doesn't make it less painful
Can't pronounce the names that it says on the label
Stand around and wait, I can't take it no more

If the past behind, why's it on my mind?
If the stars align, then which path is mine?
Miss every spotlight but I find a way to shine
Looking in the mirror with a tear in my eye cause it's
Fear in disguise disgusted for a while
But you learn to survive when you're in denial
Of who the fuck you are
From a rising star to a chip on the block
Thick skin will turn you hostile
And I can never tell you that I never loved it
But what I can say is I should've lusted
For the things I trusted just fell apart
Throwing a dart in the dark to pin point a spark
That's just not there, hypocrisy ain't fair
Party on a Thursday, then attend the lord's prayers
Missing the open air for when you feel hazy
I lost god before I found myself and that's crazy but

I feel like I'm half-living
I ain't slept in two weeks, I'm only half-kidding
Mama told me "come home," Papa told me I'm fine
Tell my friends that I'm good, told the homies I'm lying
I ain't stressed, I'm too weak? That's only half of it
I can't stand on two feet? I'm going half a step
Wanna stay on the road, you gon' stay by my side?
If I got no where to go, you gon' leave me behind?
Got a lot on my mind
But trazadone is slowing all the other motions tonight
Rolling on and on and falling into morning, I might
Roll another one and pray that I don't wake up at all
Why'd you take it at all?
Medication's on the table and it's waiting to save you
But every time you take it doesn't make it less painful
Can't pronounce the names that it says on the label
Stand around and wait, I can't take it no more

Oh it's taking too long, thought of taking you home
But I'm waiting for a day that I can say that I woke
Then I'll be letting you know
Or I'll be letting you down, I been in and outta bed
I'm betting that you could tell, you're in and outta my head
Since I met you and now I understand that I can't
Take you out until I've started taking care of myself