The Future Calls

Feel like life's moving way too fast
Sometimes I wanna be left in the past
Most of my memories just turn to grey
But 2018 feels like yesterday

Used to be close, now there's a divide
Between reality and what I can remember inside
It used to be so easy, there was nothing to fear
Thought I had it figured out, but now it's unclear

Not sure what direction or which road to take up
Wanna go back to who I was when I came up
Rap career was fantasy, faked and made up
But now I got an album, gotta step my game up

Told you before that I was feeling fine
But some days I feel like I'm living a lie
Was crawling before, now I've got to climb
But part of me just wants to go back in time

2, 4, 6, 8
Not enough time for me to contemplate
How much longer I've got left to rhyme
Or what will even happen when I run outta time

6, 5, 4, 3
Feels like I'm stuck in my memories
I can hear the future, it's calling my name
But all I wanna do is just stay the same

There used to be a time when I had no worries
Now I think about it and my vision is blurry
Got home from class just to play some games
But I look back and realize it was never the same

I'd play Lego Batman on my PS4
With Davis, back before the movies and lore
Then we'd go to Hastings, before it had closed
That was 8 years ago, but the memory's close

Writing songs with Noah, way back in the day
Rapping about how I'm from Eastern Bay
That's the way, but lately I've lost direction
Off-track, feeling like I needed correction

Then out the blue, this album was born
At my wits end, like I'm ready to mourn
Realized there was gas in the tank
And my rap career could shift up the ranks

Still I don't know if it's all a mistake
Wish I could remember every step I take
The past is the past, there's nothing to change
No matter what I do, I can't rearrange

The uncertainty of everything drives me insane
It's hard to live knowing it's all part of the game
Can I still hold on when life really begins?
And maybe more importantly, how will it end?

I can't just sit here looking back on the past
Cause I know that these memories are going to last
It's time to start living in the present today
I need to move forward, it's the only way

Wrapping up the record, time to wind down
But even though it's ending, you better not frown
If you stay in the past, you're just gonna be saddened
Don't be sad that it's over, be happy it happened

2, 4, 6, 8
Not enough time for me to contemplate
How much longer I've got left to rhyme
Or what will even happen when I run outta time

6, 5, 4, 3
Feels like I'm stuck in my memories
I can hear the future, it's calling my name
But all I wanna do is just stay the same