Own Demise (Raw)

(Yeah, gimme a sec)
Yo, I can only fall at my own demise
I'm way too real
Don't listen to this song if you're pussy

Yo, one of my guys told me I should talk less about death
'Cause If I do end up dying will I be heaven-sent?
I don't think he understands that I don't give a shit
Heroes die and villains live let's please not be that ignorant
I'm walking in the park contemplating
If I should be the hero (Should I?)
Or should I keep it quiet and propagate the evil?
I can live a normal life and solely have my freedom
But I'd rather be in prison tryna help the world to see it
I got pain that I like to share (Listen)
But you can tell I'm conscience (You can tell)
Understand why I'm still independent (I'm real)
They say forget your fans 'cause we will blow you up
You'll make some new ones
They teaching me to be fake
The game ain't made for real ones (Nope)
And I could stunt talk the stuff that I done, stuff that I have
The money 'cause I stuck to the plan?
Interviews I turned down 'cause I won't shake hands (I won't)
All the models I fucked, putting my thumb in their butt haha
I'm weirdo, but ain't we all I rather keep it real
But in this day and age everybody so fake
Was fucking wid this A&R that all these rappers wanted (Beggin')
She told me all about it while we laying butt naked
But I got manipulated (True)
Seeing the depths they would go
Just for a signature it's crazy I was only a kid (Mhm)
Only 19 I was searching for love, looking at older women (Maturity)
'Cause I'm scared of my own generation
I didn't sign, I lost my buzz and then she disappeared (Poof)
Yeah there's way more to that story but imma let her live (Really?)
For now, 'cause trust me
Revenge don't expire and at my dying age is only the time I'll retire
So listen, don't fucking compare me to no one
Unless you're talking legends (The greatest)
I'm a fucking different breed
Yeah this is my confession (I'm talkin')
This is only season two of my life
And I don't ask for help, imagine when I get my team right?
'Cause right now I'm all alone and will only fall at my own demise
Don't wanna compromise, don't wanna sacrifice
I'm way too real for the game, I hope you recognise
But should I be the hero? I think I made my mind

I'm walking in the park, made up my mind
That I should be the hero (Yeah)
And fuck the keeping quiet, middle fingers to the evil (Fuck you)
Can live a normal life and solely have my freedom
But I'd rather be in prison tryna help the world to see it
I got pain that I like to share (Listen)
But you can tell I'm conscience (You can tell)
Understand why I'm still independent (I'm real)
They say forget your fans 'cause we will blow you up
You'll make some new ones
They teaching me to be fake
The game ain't made for real ones (No it ain't)
And I could stunt talk the stuff that I done, stuff that I have
I'm a psychopath I need a brain scan
One girl, she slit her wrist in front of me just so I could stay
You won't believe the shit I seen but luckily she's okay
I got some stories to tell and this is why I'm so real
Yeah many girls are tryna trap me but I'm steering my wheel
They recognise that I'm the rarest
So they need a mini-me even if they're double my age
You know my heart they can't steal
Now everybody better be afraid of my potential
I didn't rap for none of these trends my rhymes are special
Tatted on my face that I'm a genius, I don't need the devil
They said if I keep being real I won't be that successful
This is the business

And everything that happens in my life
I know it's my fault
Yeah it's all my fault (All my fuckin' fault)
Yeah, my own demise!
And If I had my back to wall
Had nobody by my side
And You're the only one I could call (Please pick up)
Are you down to ride?