Thawing Out

I can't go, I can't go
I can't seem to leave
Like a soldier misses war
I can't seem to believe that when I

Warm up from freezing I won't
Crack at the seams
My limbs have all gone numb but
At least I have routines

Can't be melted down
Can't think my way out
Bundled up but it's still
Freezing

But there are little signs that
I've gotten pretty far like when
1989 made me
Cry in the car and I
Didn't second-guess it when I
Told you to shut up I think
I'm thawing out
And that might be enough

I am home, I am home and I can
Start to keep things straight
The temperature is safe but
I still hibernate and then I'll

Sit in a folding chair
Arranged in a ring
I'll absorb some warmth I guess
Apparently it's spring

Can't be melted down
Can't think my way out
Bundled up but it's still
Freezing

But there are little signs that
I've gotten pretty far like
When my brother told me
"Don't forget who you are" and I
Didn't find it cheesy, didn't
Try to call his bluff I think I'm
Thawing out
And that might be enough

She said she can believe in God
When she sees
Dancers

I said I can believe
He doesn't need my
Answers

There will be a sign that I
Know I've come around when the
Melting past will splatter into
Droplets on the ground and until
Then I will believe
That I am capable of love
I think I'm thawing out
And my God, that's enough