Shoulda Known

I shoulda known that you'd leave me home
Maybe leave me lone
I shoulda known this
I shoulda known that we way too grown
That we don't belong
I didn't notice

Stirring the pot
Is a perfect response
If I do it again, I don't want it to stop
Public disturbance, I'm makin it pop
Hole in my chest, keep bodying shots
Cameras is broken, photos is cropped
Ask what I go through, I'll tell you a lot
Trading my secrets like perilous stocks
I don't want em no more
Burn a hole in my pockets

Options, gimme options
I turn with the earth, so nauseous
You still in the picture frame
Adorning the corner of the desk
In my office

I don't got a office
But you know what I mean
Look at yo conscious
Dirty or clean?
Shit, you know what I mean

I shoulda known that you'd leave me home
Maybe leave me lone
I shoulda known this
I shoulda known that we way too grown
That we don't belong
I didn't notice

I feel like
What Ellison said was real
I'm an invisible—wait
I feel like—hold on, who's taking the wheel?

I'm on the interstate
Talking to God
He asking me how does it feel?

Look, I'm partly obsessed with
Retracing my steps
So how did it feel?

I know that my problems
Is deeper than most
You witnessed the scenes
That don't make it in post
But really, how did it feel?

I sorta pretend to my friends
The sentiments ended—look
How did it feel?

I'm in the—wait
You couldn't—hold up
Me and you didn't—look
Just tell me, how did it feel?

I shoulda known that you'd leave me home
Maybe leave me lone
I shoulda known this
I shoulda known that we way too grown
That we don't belong
I didn't notice

I shoulda known when you took your phone
Did things I don't condone
I shoulda known this
I shoulda known that it's been too long
We singing different songs
I didn't notice