anxiety

There's ice on the highway
Think I'll stay in bed
Paralyzed by headlines
Sixteen hours in a cold sweat

Under the red coat
Under the brave face
Wasn't looking for a pedestal
I was looking for a safe place

If you ever felt anxiety
Then you can understand the way the silence screams

Crimson painkiller
On your breath
I thought it was my problem
All your secrets were well kept

It hurt the worst when
Your body rebelled
Am I your reason for living?
Was I a mirror for the things you felt?

And if you ever felt anxiety
Then you can understand the way your mind won't sleep

Burlap jackets
And polished shoes
There's subtly in scandal
How far would a man go?

Mmm, mmm

I was afraid to mess up
I was afraid of you
You made it too personal
I thought I had everything to lose

I had everything to lose

Ooh

Long hours and nights went by
I put my trust in the system
A cheap attempt at reinvention

Found myself in the back row crying
They said "someone's here today,
Who's afraid of everything"
It's me

And if you ever felt it
Then I doubt you would've wished it on your worst enemy
Maybe codependence was your only remedy
But it's a penance that I never should've had to pay

But I paid

If you ever felt anxiety
Then you can understand the way your mind won't sleep
And I'd give anything to just to be free
Oh I'd give anything