dirty dishes

I want to be so lonely
I want to be set free
I want to ride the cloud then fall hard, headfirst to the ground
I wanna be the violence of the silence after the sirens

Could it be
All I need
To be one
With the trees
Could it be
All I need
To be none
To be free

Tear myself apart a final time
And I'll embrace the dark and make it mine
We will dance along until we die
Fill the hole that you have left behind

I analysed every fucking detail
Could not see the forest for the trees
I can't see five feet in front of me

I had to break away
The day it died inside of me
The sickening stench as it decays
I swear it haunts me every day
In finding that I couldn't save
You or I from that fucking cave
I found that I could make my peace
Accepting breath is all I need

If I die before I wake
Will I have paid for my mistake?
And if the emptiness is true
Then I will become one with you
If I die before I wake
Then you and I will wake the same

Lost and found, I hold the key
All this time I couldn't see
Though I am nothing
I am free

Tear myself apart a final time
And I'll embrace the dark and make it mine
We will dance along until we die
Fill the hole that you have left behind

Lost and found, I hold the key
Through it all, I finally see
Though I am nothing
I am free