Trauma Dump

Look at this photograph
It always makes me sad
To see all that I had
It's hard to look at that

I hope you understand
But, I understand
If you don't
Just like some people can't
And some just, won't

What was the point
Of what you've done
All this suffering
To benefit no one
From the first day I could dream
Began all the worst memories

Just another day
To anticipate
And watch the hands rotate

I need an escape

Tie it tight
Roll it up
And pour it down
I'll do anything
Just to drown it out
I'll try everything
That I haven't found
Even if it puts me
Into the fucking ground

Dead or alive
Time will decide
I only feel safe
Out of my mind

Dead or alive
Time will decide
I only feel safe
Out of my mind

It is so beautiful here
I wish that I could stay
I've realized my worst fear
Please, don't go
Away

It's all gone
They are all gone

I can be
I can be
Whatever I want to be
Even if it means
Forgetting pieces of me

I can be
I can be
Whatever I want to be
Even if it means
Forgetting pieces of me
After all
The only one
Who knows you is you
They may see your eyes
But never your view

The coldest nights
I have felt to the bone
Deafening silence
Dissonant overtones
Yet I adore being this oddity
Of all I've known
Know knew me

Washed in gray
A haze overlays my eyes
Feeling so alive
While I am paralyzed
Chemical compounds
Revealing what's inside
The best day
Of my life
Was the moment
That I died