Idle Head

Idle head, why do you induce such empty thought
I need a reason for the void I live with that I've always fought
I feel it growing inside of me
And eating all my energy
I'm never in the mood for anything
And it happened over time
I cast myself aside

I wanna be left all alone to pick
myself apart and find why I'm feeling so numb
Am I someone that was wired from the start
to be so vacant and so far from feeling joy
It seems I can't avoid this emptying feeling

It seems like everyday,
I'm swallowed the whole by a lack of
chemicals that are absent from my brain
Can't shake it off, waiting for the moment of joy inside my frame
I feel incapable of feeling bliss
Well isn't it so obvious that I'm not cut for all of this?
Because I feel it all the time
An overwhelming lack of drive

I wanna be left all alone to pick
myself apart and find why I'm feeling so numb
Am I someone that was wired from the start
to be so vacant and so far from feeling joy
It seems I can't avoid this emptying feeling

Spells of disinterest seem so routine,
Infesting my head like a parasite.
Will I escape this hollow feeling?
I can't tell, it'll never really show itself.

I wanna be left all alone to pick
myself apart and find why I'm feeling so numb