Growing Up Without Me

I'd like to forget you the way a writer forgets their own words
I'd Like to forgive you and give myself the quiet I deserve
But when I find myself letting go
I find myself a bit confused
Cause letting go of you feels like letting go of my youth

Like when we sat on the beach and watched our shadows get longer
And that night you told me you were so scared of getting older

Now you're growing up without me, aren't you?
You're filling in the spaces
In between missing me and wanting something new
You're spinning, falling down
You're screaming with no sound
Cause your safe haven's in a different town
Should I keep waiting, patiently?
While you're growing up without me

I've been stirring all summer
Thought I might catch a reflection of you
And I can't help but wonder
Are you heading home anytime soon?
Did I see you driving down Canal Street?
Did you think that's where you might find me?

Or where we sat on the beach and watched our shadows get longer
And that night you told me you were so scared of getting older

Now you're growing up without me, aren't you?
You're filling in the spaces
In between missing me and wanting something new
You're spinning, falling down
You're screaming with no sound
Cause your safe haven's in a different town
Should I keep waiting, patiently?

While you're telling good lies, getting fucked up at night
You're cursing the sky, getting used to goodbyes
And when you start to cry, you never really know why
And I could have it wrong, maybe I do
But it hurts a little less to make a guess and call it true
That growing up without me
Feels like growing up without you