Am I Selfish?

"Keep going
I promise you, if you stay consistant
At something that you thoroughly enjoy
You can take it to the beyond
No one's gonna really understand you at first
Especially if you're tryna do something
That no one's ever done before
Just never forget that you're here for a reason
Everything that you do, think and say
Has a direct impact on where this world is headed
So be yourself and don't conform to what anyone tells you
Because it's not their life"
When I go into town will I get hurt?
If I wear this skirt on the wrong day will I get hurt?
Will it hurt when I die? Would you even cry?
Would you even care?
Fuck, would you even care?
If they kill me, if I die for these stupid reasons
And these stupid people's ideas about my fucked up head
Maybe I'm already dead
People like me die everyday
Is it right to say or to dress a certain way?
Why does it fucking matter? tell me, all of this hassle
Because someone's different to you
Who is that hurting?
A person is bleeding out on the floor
I don't want to go outside anymore

I feel like a shitty girlfriend, boyfriend
Are you happy? would you have me if I was different?
Worried 'bout it, worried all the time, it's my image
If I went outside, not again, am I selfish?
Inner thoughts never ending, no pretending
I'm caught trapped in my past, would you just kill me?
Dead names, dead freinds, do it if i'm willing
Take me home, 2 years is too long, I'm quitting

Wake up, don't cut, feel the love in a paper cup
Rain clouds overhead it's gonna be a tough one
That's what I tell myself everytime I'm on one
Blood drips down, what a cheap roseboy toy
Life's too short to be feeling like shit
But sometimes better off without it
Lightly touchdown in a way you'll notice (Yuh)
When I look up I can see prisms (Who is that?)
(Uh uh uh)
Who needs a friend? I need it
I got no hope, believe it
If I wanna be misleading, I gotta spend and I gotta be it
I just wanna meet new people
So they can all stick to me
Not fuck off and leave, that's all that I need
Fuck, can I believe and not just be so fucking needy?
Gun on my lap, I get it out, patch on my hip, I stick it on
Red on my lip, I make it up, wishing these fucks would take me up
Hype me up please, it's all that I need
Euphoria bleeds outta my seams
Fuck all my seams ("It's only you to you in the end")
Please, euphoria bleeds

Please ("We're all going to be gone one day")
("So start prioritising")
Make it go away ("What you wanna do, What you wanna create")
("How you wanna live")
I don't wanna say ("I love you all so much")
("This is only the beginning")
You can be her someday
("If you wanna continue with me on this journey")
("Hit that plus button, I'm an artist, I just like to create")
God I hate, fucking change ("And inspire you guys")
Don't feel safe in this place
Maybe this, be the day that the pain goes away
My black, dark room, pink, white and blue
Mirrors tell me how to feel, what to do
Henry who? he was cool

I feel like a shitty girlfriend, boyfriend
Are you happy? would you have me if I was different?
Worried 'bout it, worried all the time, it's my image
If I went outside, not again, am I selfish?
Inner thoughts never ending, no pretending
I'm caught trapped in my past, would you just kill me?
Dead names, dead freinds, do it if i'm willing
Take me home ("Link in bio")
2 years is too long ("Have an amazing rest of your day")
I'm quitting

"Be you, be infinite, peace"