Accessory

Fuck
Oh my god

I'm trynna be the devil's sidepiece
Feelings trail behind me
I think I spent way too much time being sober
Never on keto, always need my bread
Try to catch my breath when I open up this check
But growing older, I
Notice I waste my time on doing right
By people who don't give a fuck 'bout whether I
Feel alive
Trying all these doors but shit ain't ever Coraline
Always testing me, it's pesting me
Got Orkin on the line
Drugs been on my side
Only thing that cares about how I'm doing
Always try to be the bigger person
I don't even lift, bro
But it's rare they return the favor
Can't let them get too comfortable
'Cause if you don't fit their narrative
Something ain't right with you
Always double standards, I was trynna keep it tight with you
Smoke out a homie, chill before our lives resume
Judgement in the air, this supposed to be a safe space
Got lost along the way, I fall back and retrace
Drugs will take me where I don't gotta hold a straight face
Vacation when I vacate my sober mind from blatant hate

Fuck it, imma pick up where I left off
In the mirror, "Sup? You were supposed to take off"
My accessory gon' be this cup over that watch
Look at how much looking past myself has cost
Fuck it, imma pick up where I left off
In the mirror, "Sup? You were supposed to take off"
My accessory gon' be this cup over that watch
Look at how much looking past myself has cost

I'm at a loss
Mind fatigued, eyes glossed, yeah, yeah
What's it cost?
What's it cost?

I've been caught up trynna be
So polite and white
I think that I might
Scratch this whole persona
Fuck it, showing off and waving 'round a stick of dynamite
And it's always on my side
Don't let it slip cause it might blow up
As I sip this dirty soda
Got a blunt I need to roll up
That's the fruit of my labor
Money got me in a chokehold
Trynna fight the Undertaker
I was trynna get away from it
Take a break from it
Now I wound up in the same place
Overworked and underpaid
Or overlooked and underplayed
It's all the same
It's all the same
Keep my drink as my accessory, shit
If shit is all the same
Why not be in pain while your mind is altering?
It's only ever me when I'm at the alter, see
I prefer that's how it be, I'm going all the way
Been living just to please others, now I look the other way
Self-destruct just to see what's going on internally

Fuck it, imma pick up where I left off
In the mirror, "Sup? You were supposed to take off"
My accessory gon' be this cup over that watch
Look at how much looking past myself has cost
Fuck it, imma pick up where I left off
In the mirror, "Sup? You were supposed to take off"
My accessory gon' be this cup over that watch
Look at how much looking past myself has cost

I'm at a loss