State of eNVy (feat. Yasmin Reyes)

I still remember when I got the call
Telling me that you were gone
Icey roads
Blizzard snow
Mom is frantic on the phone
Am I going to make it home?
Shit just don't make sense
The biggest G I know
Just doubled over
Ain't this some shit
I'm stuck with
Myself now
Look around
And see you with your friends
Envy is so sound
I'm jealous they ain't dead
I'm peeping all the crows now
Paranoia in my head
Be lucky that this ain't you
I question who I pray to
My uncle's blood was in the street
Lost the OG
Who showed me
How to handle beef
What am I supposed to do
When I can't know peace
Like you I wish I knew
Why it had to be me
In a state of envy

There's nothing that I can say
All I do is hope and pray
I'll see you again one day
Holding on to memories
When it was just you and me
I can only see you in my dreams

I still tend to sit around
And think about how
You took your own life
Existing on new planes now
Is there peace there?
Cause it damn sure ain't here
Then the brain steers
I think about people being lost to bullets
Against their own will
How did you opt to pull it?
Guess I sometimes feel
How you did
Think it'd be better off if
I wasn't here to live
My heart is filled envy
Knowing that you got to see the end B
I'm really here thinking
Maybe I should end things

There's nothing that I can say
All I do is hope and pray
I'll see you again one day
Holding on to memories
When it was just you and me
I can only see you in my dreams

The city that I grew up in breeds all this jealousy
Its even in the name and this evil leads to felonies
With every penny drained
Another soul is gained
We playing with these flames
Let the ash leave its stain
And in the past we could change
But this the last of the rain
The famine spreads again
We're standing in disdain
Breaking any hand to lay
Fingers on our egos pain
I'm lost in this state
So I need to stay down
Get the fuck up out of Reno
Where the envy feeds clout
With every new casino
See the legend fade now
Of a city to be proud of
I need a way out



Credits
Writer(s): Kennett Moss
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