Addicted 2 U (feat. Luv Yu)

And I'm sippin' some more of that liquor
I been drownin' my thoughts and come back to my spot
And I wish I was not in the middle
I know I been textin' an' textin' an' textin'
And you don't reply, I guess that was my riddle
And I know you don't care and it might not seem fair
So I pop me a xan, I forget to be miserable
I don't need advice, I was living in ice
And to some it gon' sound like I'm pitiful
I cannot stop crying, I'm tired of lying
Don't want single pills, I need ten or more
You was playin' my heart and that right from the start
And you tear me apart because you get bored
I guess your heart wasn't identical
I'm addicted to you like it's fentanyl

I gotta take a piss and take another drink on sight
Believe me, I'm losing my mind
Can't do it without you, I'm dying inside
My ego is buried inside
No self-esteem and I swallow my pride
Believe me, you can't do me right
I wish that you could but I'm not gonna lie
So I thought I could fix you instead
Hoping you know I'm the one who you need
For a while it was fixing me too
But it felt like your drug was too cheap
So you didn't believe when I said
For you I'll do anything, guess I'm a freak
By the time I was holding my tool
Putting a bullet straight between my teeth

I gotta take a piss and take another drink on sight
Believe me, I'm losing my mind
Can't do it without you, I'm dying inside
My ego is buried inside
No self-esteem and I swallow my pride
No self-esteem and I swallow my pride

Now I'm back here, trying to clear
My head of the fear, coming from you
The voices I hear are the same as last year
Telling me to drink beer to forget about you
I don't know what to do
I think I'm too slow finding someone new
Wanted to grow with you
But then you decided against it out of the blue
Now I'm so done, back at the start
Back at square one and it all falls apart
You were my sun, now I'm back in the dark
So I take my gun and shoot myself in the heart
Should go to therapy
Otherwise you'll be the end of me
Go back to being free
Because this world offers so much more shit to see

But there's light at the end of the tunnel
It will shine bright after all the struggle
So let's not let the bullet leave the muzzle
Yeah, thats right, I may have stumbled
But without a fight, I will not crumble
Head held high, but staying humble
That's goodbye to all this trouble
It's time to change my mindset
To rearrange stuff in my head
To throw away every regret
Let's not obey the rules, they set
In me there's now a newfound fire
Which will burn needless desire
Won't bow to another liar
My return to life as prior

I don't know what to do
I think I'm too slow finding someone new
Wanted to grow with you
But then you decided against it out of the blue
Should go to therapy
Otherwise you'll be the end of me
Go back to being free
Because this world offers so much more shit to s-

My return to life as prior
'Cause I'm growin' tired
Depression enlightened
Click another lighter
Now I'm on fire
Sparkling like sapphire
Flying so much higher
No more all-nighters
My bottle slipped, I broke it down to pieces
Breaking down myself, I dont want to believe it
Drink myself to sleep in each of all four seasons
If only you had given me a reason