Showing Up

I've walked through a thousand fires
So don't act like it's not a miracle I'm even alive
Cause I've always been the tough one
To take care when you're tired
Suck it up and hold your trembling hand
While you're out there being admired

Yet I'm still showing up, I'm still showing up for you
You say you're growing up, but I know it isn't true
I'm still showing up, I'm still showing up for you
Don't tell me that you're stuck- I'd go all the way for you

I've loved you for a thousand lives
So don't act like I was ever untrue or unkind
You revealed yourself as a friend to me
With your pure delinquent smile
And every time you bared your teeth and broke my trust
I forgave with "he's just a child"
But you reveal yourself strategically
To bounce ahead with no denial
Rubber burn, spin out quick turn
If I expect one ounce of fair trial

Yet I'm still showing up, I'm still showing up for you
You say you're growing up, But I know it isn't true
I'm still showing up, I'm still showing up for you
Don't tell me that you're stuck- I'd go all the way for you

Thinking I don't deserve the patience I had with you
But you made it clear that you just don't have the energy do you
Thinking I don't deserve the patience I had with you
But you made it clear that you just don't have the integrity

Sometimes I wish I had more of a taste for vengeance
Sometimes I wish I'd been born more of a capitalist
There's no getting even in my mind
I never thought you'd be who I'd end up enemies with

(Sometimes I feel like... if I don't say everything
What's the point of saying anything at all?)

I'll always be your confidant
Best friend, I won't forget our stuff
And if we ever twist back to touch again
I'll be bright as I was

Cause I'm still showing up, I'm still showing up for you
You say you're growing up, But I know it isn't true
I'm still showing up, I'm still showing up for you
Don't tell me that you're stuck- I'd go all the way for you