Solstice

Did I know you
Or was it in my head?
Empty bottles
Or promises instead?
'Cause on my birthday you tore me apart
After I wasted my wishes on you
But we both knew that I wasn't enough
It's just a city keeping us in love

You were my golden globe
My solstice, my prose
Something about you made me feel a little more alive
Before you I swear I was feeling so blue
Find what you love and let it kill you
'Cause you'd rather pay to feel some ecstasy
Than feel the love I gave away for free
It's just a city keeping you with me
I don't know why I love the fantasy

So I'll drink to forget you
Dance to pretend you never broke my heart
And for you I'd go insane
And I'd rather feel pain
Than feel nothing at all
Are you not gonna catch me when I fall?

I've been finding
Joy in missing out
All the other kids
They know nothing about
The glamour and opulence
Of the world I created
But with you my friend
We'll keep dancing 'til we're sober
Never getting older
'Cause you'd rather pay to feel some ecstasy
Than feel the love I gave away for free
It's just a city keeping you with me
I don't know why I love the fantasy

So I'll drink to forget you
Dance to pretend you never broke my heart
And for you I'd go insane
And I'd rather feel pain
Than feel nothing at all
Are you not gonna catch me when I fall?
Are you not gonna catch me when I fall?

I've been on another dimension
Chasing the silence that made my world so loud
I knew you'd move on from a fantasy
I'd fear the time you leave
Now I watch all the smoke you breathe
It tastes like a memory

So I'll drink to forget you
Dance to pretend you never broke my heart
And for you I'd go insane
And I'd rather feel pain
Than feel nothing at all
(Are you not gonna catch me when I fall?)
So cover me in stardust
Let's fly away for love and lust
Not a cloud in the sky
Counting down the days 'til solstice
I won't have to focus
On the tears that I cry
Even if it's only for the night