Happiness

This is traction for dissatisfaction
Chapters relaxed in the path of this bastion
Thinking how the status is really kind of ominous
Happiness defined by design from the opposite
Feel my mind flash, like colliding and crash
Want to hit brakes but instead I hit gas
Grip the pain of whiplash from this fatal impact
Wish time forward fast won't escape from this past
Collapsed feeling trapped under once tall ceilings
The path had crossed regions, the goal beyond reaching
Almost, stopped believing; just weathering all seasons
Grieving so long that the words had lost meaning
With sizeable scuffles, fights and the rumbles
Life and its tussles, all building up my muscles
Madness in the happiness as some swear
Drastic in the contrast I compare

Never heard an insult til I had an injury
Didn't taste success until I lived defeat
Never heartfelt until it skipped it a beat
Any shelter I could seek, I hid beneath
Knowledge gaps vast, so I see I'm incomplete
Strain, feel the growing pains in my wisdom teeth
Drained now my every day, is like it's Trick or Treat
You got a gift of gab, well I got a gift of grief
So when children speak, and their whispers reach
I feel like jumping off a cliff, from a widow's peak
Lost in a chilling scene, thoughts of a swift release
Exhausts my ability's visage in a guillotine
All the history, packed with misery
Couldn't take the kitchen heat, still in disbelief
Ever bittersweet, try to turn a hidden leaf
A sequel to Loyalty, how about a trilogy