Introspection

Bottom of the barrel, the bucket don't want to fill
But I'm on the come up, so I say fuck it and kill
What I put my mind to, and I write to myself
Before I put it on the mic, and I spill
My guts on the page, rip it up before I say
I'm a man who's trapped inside of his own brain
This is my hell
Welcome to my world
Let me give you a tour
It's a whirlwind I swirl

Trapped in my brain
Feelin' my pain
I try to let go
But I don't know
(I don't know, man)

I'm filled with doubts
I re-route the route that I take
I trace the roots of my pain to my heart and my brain
I think and feel too much
I need a change to the pace
On the road I'm windin' down
Gotta step on the brakes
I'm a walking contradiction
I'm a fiction who fakes
His confidence like counterfeits
Amount to shit, but I say
I'm a beast
I'm just a dog on his leash
Gotta release myself to be free
See a preacher to be
More in line with myself and to summon my chi
Pray to Jesus Christ that I find balance in life
That's what I need for the peace
But can I reach it in time?
Become the wise man before I shut both my eyes
Lay down and die?
I don't know if I might
So I lie down and cry myself to sleep at night
Thinkin' about my plight
I'm a blight to myself
It's a sight to be held
I'm one of a kind but too many things at once, all trapped in a shell
I need to crack it and tell
The little kid inside to rise from his hell
Spread his wings and fly right offa the shelf

(I'm) trapped in my brain
(I'm) feelin' my pain
I try to let go
But I don't know

So I do what I think will help me outta this place
I talk to people I trust and put my pen to the page
I try to change what I can
I'm startin' small, but I may grow
Into a better me
Drop bad habits and gain
A healthier lifestyle
Ease these thoughts and the strain
Lift this weight off my shoulders
Feelin' free as a crane
I take this leap of faith
And tell myself it's okay
Feel this way on dark days
Then return to the rays
Gotta look on the bright side
And remember my name
I'm the Master MC
Call me J-R3MI
I'm proud of who I am
And that's an easy task when I got my man (Half Note On Tha Track)
To spit these muthafuckin' raps to
Lay the beat to rest and let the fans do the rest