If You Only Knew

I'd just hit ten
Thought we were friends but it's gone now
For no other reason it's my fault
Fuck it up and they'll leave

In the dark, I
Can hear the shouts and the wall break
Seeing the pain masked on their face
I promised right then

Just a dime piece
Is that what you see, think I'm wearing
That dress like it couldn't mean less than
But if you only knew

The screen's cracked
That look in your eyes and you don't know
Surely I'd choose the sticks and stones
Over what's in my head

Didn't know that
This wall I worked so hard to build up
For all of these years wasn't working
And only pushed you away

I can see now
I nailed up these boards to protect me
From fear and from shame and I can't be
Fucking perfect for you

It's not working
And keeps me hurting
It's not worth it
Making perfect
It's not over
Make me over
I've got nothing left to prove

If you fall there's no shame in crying
If you fall there's no shame in crying
If you fall there's no shame in crying

I'll stop trying to prove
That I'm perfect for you
Nothing left to do
No more perfect for you
I'll stop trying to prove
That I'm perfect for you
Nothing left to do
No more perfect for you
I'll stop trying to prove
That I'm perfect for you
Nothing left to do
No more perfect for you

The screens cracked
Oh but if you only knew