Afterlife

(Keeping you close
I don't always
Love what the heroes do)
Every time
I close my eyes
And I'm waking up in the afterlife
What's it like after death? let me tell you
Just subliminal space with the dark view
Waiting for the anxiety to come through
Darkness around me that I never grew
I swear on my mind that I can not think
By god I need to swim? but I'm gonna sink
I am drowning in the thoughts, I am on the brink
To think that I lost everything in a blink

I feel so alone, I become a nobody
Ever since I died, nobody's taking to me
With the mask on that they oversee
I want to be the best, but I dunno where to be
And I feel like I'm gonna waste away
I really don't wanna go outside today
Saying goodbye to the good old days

(Keeping you close
I don't always
Love what the heroes do
Every time)
Every time I wake up into this shitty world
I feel like a phoney
Feel so bound into my own bed
Better stay here and make it homely
This impostor syndrome's eating me up inside
And it's killing me slowly
I just wanted someone who relate too
But I guess don't, So I feel so lonely

And I got no messages, into the screen I stare
I know why, it's because nobody cares
Wouldn't be surprised when it's my funeral
And it turns out nobody's there
I'm corrupting my own files and my hard drive
Going in head first like a nosedive
This is what it's like in the afterlife

Every time
I close my eyes
And I'm waking up in the afterlife

And now I have two options
I can drop all of this and just give up
And walk away and continue with my life?
Or
I can be the hardest and the strongest
Motherfucker in my bloodline!