I Love You

I wish I could stay and call
And wonder why I cared for all those petty imperfections
The sections of your hair that cornered over
Around the corner is someplace happy
Always feels so lonely when you hold me
There's nothing that you owe me

I don't know why I am so conflicted
It's almost as if I am addicted to the noise of your disappointed smile

I love you
Like the water loves the dam
And you rip out my eyes to see my mortified countenance
And you lie
You look like you're terrified
Every time I said I cried but I'm not a crier

A liar
Is what I called you
And I'm starting to regret it
I'm proud of you for moving on and forgetting me
I hope if that we meet again
We can cry it off and just see each other lovingly
Because the feelings you made me feel were heavenly

I just need some time to make sense of my shelf
All these books of feelings
Is the book of loneliness
Made my friend Cameron want to kill himself
If it is that's alright
He once told me part of living is not wanting to be alive

And can't you see
Your parents drag you underneath
You can pick out your confidence from their fucking teeth
And they convince you that you're the one who crashed the car
So you're the reason why life always seems so fucking hard

I know you know that's not the case
I can feel the love inside you that reverberates my skin
And I'm sorry if my actions made it harder to see your fate
It's just that when I'm with you I wish you'd never leave that place you're in

I love you
Like the water loves the dam
And we love to sing songs about overbearing anxiety
Man, my problems don't mean anything
And yet you listen to me sing
You listen to me sing