Hate My Ways

First things first
Let me set this straight
I can do my thing
And handle this pain
And I'll lay in bed
And dread this day
'Cause oh my god
I hate my ways

Wake up some messages
Can't relate
I wake up to nobody
And that's my fate
Slugging through it all
Everyday is the same
Looking in the mirror
And I hear myself say

What is your problem boy
Looking all down with noise
Filling up every void
You're looking quite destroyed
Don't even smile
I see your profile
And don't even try
To bring out the light
It's dimming right out
And I'm breaking down
In tears I've been drowning
Behind the counter
Locked in the door
Never did this before
I just need a hug
All they do is shrug

Wait
I'm feeling
Dizzy
Again

Got up too fast
Maybe it's a dream
I might have saw
Someone for me
If I wake up I don't want to stop
It's where I'm from and not a background
But a cornerstone
In someone's life
Establishing my own sound
Inside her phone
And not drowned out
Not look back
I hate how I'm so attached
If I dive in I can't look back
I get heartbreak and then flashback

Because I'm always up on the same things
I have been thinking lately
I don't want to give mercy
To the people that hate me
That might be everyone, maybe
Getting I'm grinding it daily
Never showing I'm lazy
Though the struggle is aching

I hate my ways
But I'm one to blame
Everything today
I still hate my name
When they say it in vain
But I love to bear
Sabotage my chance
Of finding love is there

It's dying down
I'm not alright
I hate how
I'm a lie
About my life
Tied to my eyes
So you can't see
Why oh why?

Why
Why would you try
What do you see in me
This doesn't feel right
But I don't want to fight
Can't break my walls down
For anyone in sight
This still don't feel right

First things first
Let me set this straight
I can do my thing
And handle this pain
And I'll lay in bed
And dread this day
'Cause oh my god
I hate my ways

Hide it up
Tape it up
That won't work
Give me love
And a shot
I might burst
She might break it up
I might first
Imma run
Make a turn
For the worst
Made a move
I don't like
That just hurt
Burn a heart
I cannot
Look at her
What if it's
Just a fraud
I don't know
Got to trust
Something
Or I'll burn

First things first
Let me set this straight
I can do my thing
And handle this pain
And I'll lay in bed
And dread this day
'Cause oh my god
I hate my ways



Credits
Writer(s): Isaiah Jefferson
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