I Wonder

Oh yeah, I've never been real good at lettin' go of the past
But I've always been good at fuckin' up when I'm mad
And even when they do me dirty, I still wanna go back
Because I let this life convince me that I'm nothin' but trash

I'm scared of change, even though I've always had to adapt
Not to be sad, but I bet I got my holes in my back
From people that say they love me, then they leavin' me stabbed
And then they wanna look confused when I act how they act

I wonder where I'll be when I'm forty
Will I have a bunch of people to adore me
Will I still be exploring, looking for people for me
Will I still be alone

Will I still be chasing dreams while I'm running from home
Oh, will this dream take me somewhere I live on the road
And now I live to please people that won't leave me alone
And if I ever live to see sixty

Wonder if I ever got to live my big dreams
Wonder if I still got friends with me
Wonder if my heart's still empty
Wonder if I fall in love and it don't leave me broken

And I got some satisfaction from the path that I've chosen
I wonder if I ever got to buy my momma that house
And I make sure that everyone that I love don't go without
Yeah, I wonder

Yeah, I wonder
Yeah, I wonder
Oh yeah, I wonder where I'll be when I'm forty
Will I have a bunch of people to adore me

Will I still be exploring, looking for people for me
And if I ever live to see sixty
Wonder if I ever got to live my big dreams
Wonder if I still got friends with me

Wonder if my heart's still empty
I'd be a liar if I said I knew the answer
Don't know the future and that's something I can't handle
It drives me nuts not to know the fucking outcome

Of this dream and that's something I can't outrun
Do I give up today? I don't think that would help
Counterproductive and destructive to myself
The only reason that I'm doing this music for mental health

And if I didn't, I don't think I'd survive this living hell
I wonder where I'll be when I'm forty
Will I have a bunch of people to adore me
Will I still be exploring, looking for people for me

And if I ever live to see sixty
Wonder if I ever got to live my big dreams
Wonder if I still got friends with me
Wonder if my heart's still empty

Yeah, I wonder
Yeah, I wonder
Hmm
Oh yeah, I wonder

I wonder where I'll be when I'm forty
Will I have a bunch of people to adore me
Will I still be exploring, looking for people for me
And if I ever live to see sixty

Wonder if I ever got to live my big dreams
Wonder if I still got friends with me
Wonder if my heart's still empty



Credits
Writer(s): Coleman Lane
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