IN THE DARK

Every time
That I hear that I see that I feel you
I'm reminded that I couldn't heal you
A painful void is left behind

Once a year
For a week or a day or a moment
We are torn, we are one, this is torment
For the first time now I understand
Why you're again, in my head

And I still feel guilty
For letting you suffer so long

As I tried to save you
Laying in the dark
You were drowning
And your eyes without a spark
Of life

The next day
They were laughing, joking and talking
Blaming me and I can't take the mocking
Made up stories poisoning your mind

I reach out
Hear my thoughts and my words I am honest
I can't have this being demolished
Want to release you from your grieving
It's been going on, for too long

As I tried to save you
Laying in the dark
You were drowning
And your eyes without a spark
I had to hold you
Standing at the dawn
You're not breathing
As the storm is closing in

If I told you now
After all these years
Will it bring you closure
Or open up our wounds
Year after year
It still stands between us
Now I'm writing this letter
That you'll never get
This is our last chapter
That I can't forget

As I tried to save you
Laying in the dark
You were drowning
And your eyes without a spark
What you've thought you went through
Was stabbing us both in the heart
I still hear the lies
And it has torn us apart