I Have Given Up

I always wonder if I'll figure it out
By the time I have decided
To give it up

And then I'm thinking that
They'll play my song
In a local bar after
I have given up
And I've settled down
With a new love

And I'll turn to my lover
And I'll say
"this song they're playing, this one's mine"
And I wrote it when I was nineteen
When I had friends and I had lovers
And people who I thought that I
Would have in my life
'Til I was old and I was bitter and I was blue
But that wasn't true

I'm giving up on love
Giving up on trying
Giving up trying to find
Find the people that they want me to talk to
Because they say they understand
But they don't understand
And I don't want to be an old man

I always wonder if I'll figure life out
When I'm twenty-five
And my dreams have died
And that's all because
Something didn't feel right

And then I'm thinking that
I'll figure it all out
In a job that I hate
With a song that I love
But that seems unjust

So I'll turn to my mother
And I'll say
"This life I'm living, this one's mine"
And I'll turn
To my brother and my sister
And my nephew and niece
Now that we're all alone
I don't want to be thirty-five
With no more love in my life

When I have given up
'Cause I am giving up

Giving up on love
Giving up on trying
Giving up trying to find
Find the people that they
Want me to talk to
Because they say they understand
But they don't understand
And I don't want to be an old man
I don't want to be an old man
He never got to be an old man
I don't want to be an old man
I'm giving up
I'm giving up
I'm giving up