What's Expected

They've been (they've been)
Waiting (waiting)
But I'm just trying to get to saying (saying)
How much (how much)
I hate it (I hate it)
Here I am right back on my shit (back on my shit)
They've been (they've been)
Waiting (waiting)
But I'm just trying to get to saying (saying)
How much (how much)
I hate it (I hate it)
Here I am right back on my shit (back on my shit)

I've been conforming to what's expected of me
Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be
No point to this life if it's done effortlessly
They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets
I've been conforming to what's expected of me
Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be
No point to this life if it's done effortlessly
They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets

Do you even know I'm alive? How could you not
I'm too alive, I can't dead it I can't stop
I don't give a fuck, get what I want and then I drop
I'm a social vulture, let it decompose and rot
Because my time is just too valuable
My words are in bold and every letter a capital
Like it's motherfucking doomsday
But I play it casual, my last day on earth
I'mma try and get some vaginal
I'mma try for a basket-full with a bow on the handle
I'mma fuck up a friendship and leave connection dismantled
I'mma do some dumb shit and set a terrible example
For Scarlett, the hardest person to abandon
An anvil is sitting on my chest, it's caving in my flesh
And now more than ever, no emotion to express
If there's emotion on my face, I'm definitely possessed
Call Peter Venkman and the boys to come clean up the mess

I've been conforming to what's expected of me
Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be
No point to this life if it's done effortlessly
They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets
I've been conforming to what's expected of me
Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be
No point to this life if it's done effortlessly
They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets

They addicted to the pillow like it's Zyns for the neck
I feel like my life in jeopardy like Alex Trebek
I'm not able to breathe, what is suffocation 'till death?
"What is low self-worth?"
I'll stay complacent I guess
My addictions are different
Glycogen and sucralose is flowing straight through my system
Its a back and forth, a tug of war between gluttony and abstinence
I'm doing everything I can just to decrease the friction
I'm taking off the rubber and I'm slipping the tip in
If this is simulation, then I'm glad that I'm in it
Every week claiming I'm a brand new rendition
Opportunity whizzing past me and then I just miss it
I go pedal to the metal 'fore the keys in ignition
Regardless of my efforts, I won't ever be forgiven
Regardless of my status as a writer or musician
Lead me not into temptation, that's my biggest competition

I've been conforming to what's expected of me
Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be
No point to this life if it's done effortlessly
They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets
I've been conforming to what's expected of me
Do you know I'm alive? 'Cause it's a blessing to be
No point to this life if it's done effortlessly
They asleep, body sandwiched 'tween the bed and the sheets