coming of age

It's like a coming of age, tryna process all of the pain
I wrote it down on a page it made me famous right
Now it's a mic and a stage that I be taming right
I'm living life on a level they ain't attaining right
It's pen ink and rose pedals for all my anguish
I'm in sync, niggas mellow but never faded away
For petty payment and change, I'm on a whole different wave
And you could see it in my face I ain't playin' nigga

And they was eating in my face, I ain't forget
About the times that I committed to the vision
And I slipped
But it worked out in the end
Got dark skin melanin, I'm heartless with my pen
Don't bargain for the wins
These niggas lame and I see it, these niggas fake and I needed
To realign the picture with some close pins, oh shit
Young Meez the type a nigga leave you toeless, Van Gogh shit
And like the last line they never make sense, type shit
On the internet for likes and clicks, spiteful shit
And fuck these niggas I've been feeling righteousness
I'm prime to get, a grammy by the age of 23, I'm tryna see

My vision clearly, I miss my father dearly, I miss my auntie
Silly that I never went to she her while she was in Georgia peachin'
Now this grief shit turned me demon
But I'm not really like that, reluctant I still fight back tho
Cause I was taught at a early age, don't let em play with yo soul
Don't let em play you like a hoe nigga
I'm feeling frozen, my heart cold
Really I'm a sober soul but I was just with the homies
Had some drinks a week ago
I ain't never really knowing if my emotions is controlled
The longest of the road
I'm farther from the old but I'm larger than the mold
I'm heartless in the soul, I was born to be a pro