I (No Longer) Like Myself

I remember myself
I had hope and dreams I'd kept
Unafraid to be, only being me
By the riverbed
With my special poetry
Knowing loneliness is just a solitary page

I've chosen to forget
But I guess I don't really like myself although
I've been alone before
It's just one of those skills you pick up on
When you're on your way back home
It's strange to feel such hopelessness

Don't look the other way
It's a mystery I must've missed
Of how I suddenly became so cold
Don't take my crown away
Please, baby, be brave
How many times did you bet it all on a stranger?
How many times did you lose your wilderness?
Or did you never get it back?
Baby, be brave

Know I've tried
But I guess I don't really like myself although
I've been in love before
You never realise the luck you had
When you were making your way back home
I feel loneliness has kept me away
Hidden under summer rain

I yearn for those days
When I could hold you close
Now all I need is to stop
Figure out what went wrong
Retrace my steps and fall
It is nobody's fault
Can you even spin this lie anymore...?

I know...
Baby be brave
There's no need to say it again
Why won't you learn a different phrase?
'Cause we've been on this road
A million times before
I think a miracle
Is what you're looking for

I don't even know why
But I really don't like myself anymore
It's just, I think I've been lucky to love myself before
And I sway the weight weighing on this song
I swear I'll make it through
It's just one of those skills I picked up
On my way back home
I can feel it in my bones
I'll make it home