Doubt

Sometimes I think I'd be better off dead, this is as honest as I'll ever get
Thought I was cool for a while, I put on a smile, but deep down inside I'm a mess
I already feel like I lost it, when I haven't even gained it yet
Most of the time I'm exhausted, been three nights since I've been to bed

Cause I got all these thoughts in my head, know what it's like living life with regret
You probably don't and it don't even matter, I'm sorry you ain't seen this part of me yet
Most of my life I've been holding my head up, but the weight starts to take a toll
Fear that I'll wake up one day and let go, you knock on my door and ain't nobody home

Cause the pain runs deep and I'm drowning out here in this ocean of lies I swear
I'm gasping for air and I'm screaming for help, but it seem like really don't nobody care
Wonder if someone's around me who feel how I feel, when I look there ain't nobody there
Yeah, why do I keep listening to doubt, doubt, doubt? When I look around ain't nobody round, round, round like

Doubt, doubt, doubt
Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self
Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud
Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I feel oh

Doubt, doubt, doubt
Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self
Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud
Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I

And I thought that the pills that I popped were real
Thought they'd make all my problems heal
All my emotions disappear
One day I took a good look in the mirror

I was disgusted with what I had seen
He threw away all his hopes and his dreams
Started reflectin' on everything
Fell to the floor and I'm cryin', got tears runnin' down
Is this really what I wanna be

See, I was a kid when they took advantage of my innocence
I lost my sister and never got over it
I went from couches to cars during homelessness
I was 130 pounds soakin' wet
Me and my family ain't speak

I've been to detox and treatment so many times
I can never seem to get on my feet
Cause the pain runs deep, you know what I mean
It ain't your fault if you don't

Cause honestly, I wouldn't wish this upon my worst enemy
Why would I care if I couldn't feel anything
Is this how it ends
What would you say if you came to my funeral

Would we pretend, that everything's fine
The struggle is beautiful
The struggle is beautiful, yeah

Doubt, doubt, doubt
Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self
Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud
Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I feel oh

Doubt, doubt, doubt
Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self
Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud
Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I

Doubt, doubt, doubt
Why do I keep listenin' to myself, self, self
Hangin' around with demons, they get loud, loud, loud
Wonder if there's anyone who feel how I feel, oh, how I