SHAME

It's a shame that I'm cutting lines
Nobody has this pain; it's only mine
You can't understand it, so I'll underline
This darkness poking so deep, chill right down my spine

I can't fight it
No, I can't fight it
I can't fight it
It's not invited
I can't fight it
I'll live just to spite it
I can't fight it
Then I'll ignite it

This pain intercepting my happiness
Not a therapist, can't even help this shit
'Cause inside, all I feel is emptiness
Whatever happened to that thing people call bliss?

I can't find it
No, I can't find it
I can't find it
What is wrong with me? Yeah

The weight in my chest suffocates my breath
A constant battle, a struggle with no rest
I'm drowning in despair, lost in the abyss
A captive of sadness, my heart's in distress
Every smile forced, a façade, must beware
But inside, I am shattered, beyond repair
Everyday's a reminder that the pain won't fade
Haunted by memories, in darkness, I wade

It's a shame all of the attempts I've made
All the times that I've been played
All the times I took the blame
It's so unreal
This ain't how I'm 'posed to feel

And, it's a shame all of the mistakes I've made
All the times my sadness gained
All the times I wanted fame
But it's unrealistic

Why am I so pessimistic?

Why am I to blame?
It's a shame

People keep on telling me to fix my life
What makes them think I'll take their advice?
How I'm feeling's not fair; they just don't care
They just want me to put down the knife
These meds don't work
If they did, they're shitty 'cause I still feel hurt
I just wanna be six feet in the dirt
I'm sorry for being dark, but living is the worst yeah

It's a shame all of the attempts I've made
(Oh my god), All the times that I've been played
All the times I took the blame
It's so unreal (yeah)
This ain't how I'm 'posed to feel

('Posed to feel, 'Posed to feel, 'Posed to feel)

And, it's a shame all of the mistakes I've made
All the times my sadness gained, (all alone)
All the times I wanted fame
But it's unrealistic (unrealistic)
Why am I so pessimistic?
Pessimistic

Oh, the sorrow stains my breath
A constant ache, a dance with death
In this darkness, hope is a dream
A shattered soul, tearing at the seams

In this desolate place, my spirit's worn thin
Aching for release from the pain within
With every heartbeat, I yearn for peace
But darkness consumes; all hope shall cease
With every heartbeat, I yearn for peace
But darkness consumes; all hope shall cease

It's a shame all of the attempts I've made
(Oh my god), All the times that I've been played
All the times I took the blame
It's so unreal (yeah)
This ain't how I'm 'posed to feel

('Posed to feel, 'Posed to feel, 'Posed to feel)

And it's a shame all of the mistakes I've made
All the times my sadness gained, (oh)
All the times I wanted fame
But it's unrealistic (unrealistic)

Why am I so pessimistic?

Pessimistic