Catch the Rain

Every day I pray that all this pain will go away
I hold my faith and trust that God will lead the way
I know I'll make it through the storm and through the rain
And I won't break until I see a brighter day

The pain never goes away
I suppress these feelings in my chest, then they move up to my neck
And decapitate, I'm obsessed with time
I know I can't get it back, so when I catch my head

It's only half the wait, I smile on Saturdays
The weekend's when I strengthen and deactivate
And then Monday comеs around and I relive the samе
The cycle is a storm I chase, but I can't seem to catch the rain

It's war when I'm in the booth
Just me inside a room and this liquor always tells the truth
Got my phone inside my hand, but I turned off my notifications
'Cause the sight of one can fuck around and chase my mood

I hit record
My life's melodic pain they've never heard before
They get addicted to that sound and then I make them more
And now I understand why they say when it rains it pours

Don't wanna live my life inside this cage, I'm stuck in a retro grave
As history repeats itself, I seclude myself and ask for space
I think I'm planted in the storm
But I can't catch the rain, cover up a master pain, I think I got a-

The pain never goes away (the pain never goes away)
I suppress these feelings in my chest, then they move up to my neck
And decapitate, I'm obsessed with time
I know I can't get it back, so when I catch my head

It's only half the wait, I smile on Saturdays (Saturdays)
The weekend's when I strengthen and deactivate (deactivate)
And then Monday comes around and I relive the same
The cycle is a storm I chase, but I can't seem to catch the rain

'Cause I'm having trouble getting used to me
'Cause I remember how it used to be
I meet new people every day and you see, usually
I don't know if they like me or they motherfuckin' using me

And that's why I'm just closed off and antisocial
In and out of conversations
I'm compensating, my music's my excuse to say I'm vocal
My greatest hits are my worst times compiled
I bottled up and shared to the world and that's what made 'em global

And that's the fucked up part
Popping prescriptions while giving vivid descriptions
To people who clap and listen
While you stuck inside a prison, slave to the algorithm
Cope with the mechanisms like liquor and chasing women

But that's what they want, then you wake up and it's all over
Life is nothing but a vapor, once you blink, you're older
Your heart gets colder, they meddle in your mind
The systems you gave your whole lifetime implodes and starts to corrode

And you're looking over your shoulder
Thinking how you supposed to get through this life while being sober
You lose composure, get to drinking for the closure
Then you're right back in the cycle where those motherfuckers want ya, say

The pain never goes away (the pain never goes away)
I suppress these feelings in my chest, then they move up to my neck
And decapitate, I'm obsessed with time
I know I can't get it back, so when I catch my head

It's only half the wait, I smile on Saturdays (Saturdays)
The weekend's when I strengthen and deactivate (deactivate)
And then Monday comes around and I relive the same
The cycle is a storm I chase, but I can't seem to catch the rain

Every day I pray that all this pain will go away
(Dear God, please burn every bridge that brings my life back to pain)
I hold my faith and trust that God will lead the way (amen)
I know I'll make it through the storm and through the rain
And I won't break until I see a brighter day