Dreams of an Adolescent

Got faith in me, I gotta make it out
I remember days, graduation, back at momma house
Heart crying out, can't punch the wall
Faith been tiring out
TV ain't mounted
Mattress, bed rails, sinking in
I pray I'm moving out
What's even worse was moving family into my momma house
The unfairness, it was daily madness, took the deeper route
Uncomfortably dealing with tensions
From both sides in this house
And still trying to lead
Wish my pops had planted better seeds
Instill a man in me, broken promises that I can't leave
From my mind, it's been all times that I was waiting by the sea
Just a dad to call
Learned forgiveness, looked into the mirror
I got God leading me, clear my mind, I needed peace
Know I still got this passion, even when my life seem bleak

I can't give up now, I pray I'll be that star I need to be
Family problems, I just wanna financially see increase
Generational wealth, I know that stream gon' start with me
Hopping out the stands, wish my dad was there, I hit a three

Senior prom, going on trips, visits to university
I still love him, I just wish we had more memories to keep
Your seed is larger than you weep
Wishing life was different, but I cannot change what made me, me
I'm a Be, God'll lead, no hesitation when I breathe

Feel success in the air, praying my people be free
And stay free, feel the children, homicide on PC
Grief on TV, I just wanna leave

Follow your heart, smile
When times get hard, just stay up, you know your heart now
Forgive yourself, it's self-love, and it's your walk now
Walking through it, rise above, don't let your heart down
Just smile, smile, follow your heart, smile
When times get hard, just stay up, you know your heart now
Forgive yourself, it's self-love, and it's your walk now
Walkin' through it, rise above, don't let your heart down
Just smile, smile

Thoughts from these skylines, stood up for something, had to realize
I put my past behind, but can't forget the roughest times
Seeing mama deal with relations, what's too much to cry
No father figures, just enough to pass the time and by
Couldn't believe it, a man cheating on my mama in multiple weekends

Failed marriages, I know this last one, she gon' keep it
Pray for her blessing, used to wish my mom and pops was still connected
Would've had a meal at seven, cause Lord knows it's different
Living in two-parent homes

Seem less likely in ghettos, it's segregated zones, I see it's normal for others
Opposite of my color, money passed down for generations
Three sisters and brothers, but million-dollar homes
Far away from where I speak, so many kids losing hope

In these city streets, endless cycles, opportunities
That's away from reach, I know my purpose
And I know I make a way for we, we gotta be
Higher than statistics when you know you black

Don't let them judge your character to be
You one of them ones that can change the world by any means
Keep God first, just stay free, your mindset gave you the key
To make it out this next chapter, dreaming for cool, sun breeze

I will be the first millionaire to change my family dream
Stress-free, sleep in hammock by lemons and palm trees
I'ma be the first shift to get us out of poverty
We finally free