Long Haul (feat. Truth100 & Manny B.)

I promise to keep it honest, with the words that I spit
It's lawless there ain't no migos in the place where we live
She had a kid with the homie but he smoking on fet
Which means they can't leave the house he paranoid as a bitch
He's beating on her and he's cheating on her, ripping her clothes
He won't let her talk to friends, he keep breaking her phone
Staying up all night, so he don't work no more
Now she reaching out to relatives whenever he's gone
This shit is hell, it ain't a home, I see the devil as he roam
Ain't no hope for the baby, now he sleeping in the cold
Ain't no food on the table, just a pipe and some dope
I got this hole in my soul, I can't lie no more
I'm trying to get ya out that trap, please don't cry no more
I know it's war for you baby, but you gotta hold on
I hope you climb out of that hole
I hope you make it on your own
You can't do it for yourself, do it for your baby boy, come on

Look, look
It's what they don't know
Tired of fighting my demons
That's what they don't know
I've been feeling defeated
That's what they don't know
Tired of always living, feeling solo
So low (look)
It's what they don't know
Tired of fighting my demons
That's what they don't know
I've been feeling defeated
That's what they don't know
Tired of always living, feeling solo
So low

Look, no one knows the pain I've been through
All these cold and dark places, I done been to
All them times I came up smaller than a shih tzu
Demons creeping and got a hold on me like jujitsu
How I'm livin, but my soul got a toe tag
I tried giving em happiness that I don't have
They say that tough times pass and they don't last
And I'm suppose to get a bag like a grown man
Look, but I been stuck in this cycle
With all this trauma in my life
Enough to make me go psycho and to religion
Still problems got me reading the Bible
At times I wish that I could fade away from earth
Like I'm Michael for real
I guess it's true what they say, that drama it kills
And how they say the deepest wounds come from someone you feel
Funny how those very wounds take the longest to heal
I done found a group of these situations, been testing my will

Look, yeah
And it all falls
Cause ain't nobody with you when it's all gone
Ain't nothin right, this shit is all wrong
Carrying this weight, it's been a long haul
(Mm yeah) and it all falls
Lately all they say is I'm a lost cause
I've been fighting demons and they all strong
Crying out for help but still got empty call logs

Got made me (uhuh)
Mama raised me (she did)
No pops, just Pac, Biggie and Jay-Z
Guess you could say, that Hip-Hop's what saved me
Cause without it homie, I'd be locced out crazy
Fallen victim to the system or even my demons
But my jefita always said that there's reasons I'm breathing
So I spun for me, gave myself something to believe in
Now I'm up early in the morning while everyone sleeping
Getting to the bag, in it for the long haul
Cause when it all falls, I'm all I really got dog
Aside from a few partners, I got on call
Front line if anything tends to pop off
But most times I'm usually mobbin doe-low
I keep my eyes peeled for haters and the po-po
Cause in this life you never know when you gon' go
So I just blow dro and plot of ways for more dough

Look, yeah
And it all falls
Cause ain't nobody with you when it's all gone
Ain't nothin right, this shit is all wrong
Carrying this weight it's been a long haul
(yeah) and it all falls
Lately all they say is I'm a lost cause
I've been fighting demons and they all strong
Crying out for help but still got empty call logs