Inspired by Geminis

It's the last one!
Sometimes I like to show my versatility on beats like this
Show them that there's more to me than being a lyricist
Or maybe even a rapper who can be dapper in the latest fashion
I would rather sit alone and think about my plan in action
Haunted by my previous choices
Wishing I could be more focused in being precautious
Necessary research of the things I was approaching
Thinking it would be just fine having some fun and joking
Sometimes I wanna show how vulnerable I can really get
Like the time I cried when shorty just got up and jet
After all the years of disrespect, lying, cheating, creeping
Wasn't even deeping that she found out years ago while I was sleeping
Woke up in pandemonium
Frantically running around the flat, calling all her family showing em
She never had a clue a few of them knew of my secret ways
And of course they also knew my whereabouts for several days
They would often participate
But that wasn't my time to confront them for being snakes
They knew the reasoning behind my lustful and devious ways
Traumatised by how she could make such a evil mistake
Need a break!
The word ABORTION played around within my head
Made me feel like I'm solely responsible for my baby's death
Then I realised no matter what I did she never wanted it
So this was just a way of getting back a evil shhhhhhhh
Peace pops hope you're loving it in paradise
I appreciate you for the times you made a sacrifice
Pray you're chillin' with mama eating your favourite jollof rice
I remember you would love it when I had an appetite
Now I know you won't believe your boy is drinking lots of water
And you'd be proud to know junior has now become a father
Of six, thankful to ALLAH subhanahu wa ta'ala
Constantly we're paying even though we struggle during fajr
Times are gettin madder
Babies are getting badder
To be honest I completely fell off the current matter
Matter of fact the fact is mans are dying in the manor
In a crazy manner out of anger in the wrong bandanna
Post code wars in a zone for education
Be where you're at or suffer quick retaliation
Spread the information for a lack of toleration
You's a bitch nigga if we catch you slipping on location
Ignoramous, clout chaser wanna be famous
Fronting like they clever but really your bloody brainless
In a generation where people are shameless
Who am I to judge? I'd rather keep it moving cause it's painless
Steel stainless, cold shoulder, high roller
Old school Motorola in a Vauxhall nova
Paper soldier debt collector for the older
Break a leg for your performance and the lack of moolah
Flee the scene cos man is moving like a puma
Hit the trap, flip the garms, make dua in Jummah
Completely fell off nothing worth having comes up easy
I know your thoughts and I don't care if nigga sounding cheesy
Please believe me, in fact don't believe a single word
Live your life experience everything before you hit the dirt
Nothing has ever been the same and it will always be
Constantly revolving with the globe into eternity
Think about it
Take your time
Act accordingly cause there's some things you can't rewind
Rewind
Rewind