Nirvana

I learn through pain, typically
But I'm tired of crucifying myself
I expand by breaking
But I'm sick of humiliation

Some of my experiences seem to just soak into my being
Like I absorb the poison
Instead of reacting to the medicine
Instead of letting it cleanse me
I don't purge
I conserve
And save up my energy
Like inevitably there's a bigger fight coming

Every shaman I work with says the same thing to me
You
Are a Warrior
But I'm tired of fighting

I want to put my blinders on and
Slip through the seems to liberation
I want to swim with less perception
To flow
Not take on every fight as my own
Not extract every ounce of painful knowledge
From every little thing in my world

I want Nirvana
But I still want to know



Credits
Writer(s): Hailey Hanson
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