Toxic Inspiration

Adelso on this

You one of the reasons why I strive to be better
Thinking if I was better then maybe we'd be together
But I know that's false
I've been out here looking for the love that we lost
Hoping one day I might find it once I fix all of my flaws, baby

But that's now how the story ends
And yeah, I know it, but I still like to pretend
That you my lover and my friend
And after we done working on ourselves
You cross my path and we gon' fall in love again

But isn't that what we all say
Just so we can soften up the heartbreak
Sad to say I learned that shit the hard way
Real question is
Did you really mean all of that shit
Or am I waiting on a date that don't exist?

Please let me know
Did you only tell me that we could
Just to hide the fact you leaving me for good?
'Cause if so that's fine
I'll just keep on working on myself
To be as happy as I was when you were mine

'Cause I've been tryna keep my head up, memories don't make it better
Struggling to keep it all together
Hoping that you acknowledging my effort, na, na, na, na
'Cause I've been so patient
Tryna save you when I'm the one who need the saving
You can still find me right here, I'll be waiting
I just hope you know that you my toxic inspiration

Know that you ain't coming back but I'll be waiting anyway
What's inside my heart for you is way more than these words can say
Way more than these songs
Tryna right my wrongs
Feelings that I got for you too strong
I can't leave you lone
This pain just ain't gon' stop till you come home

And this ain't how it's supposed to be
And if it is then that ain't good enough for me
'Cause in my heart I still believe that you and me are still meant to be
So, I'ma grow into the person that you need

Tell you come home, home, home
I've been all alone, 'lone, 'lone, 'lone
I find it crazy it's been working
You not by my side, but still make me a better person
If it ain't meant to be then I'ma end up all alone
But that'll be alright aslong you notice that I've grown

'Cause I've been tryna keep my head up, memories don't make it better
Struggling to keep it all together
Hoping that you acknowledging my effort, na, na, na, na

'Cause I've been so patient
Tryna save you when I'm the one who need the saving
You can still find me right here, I'll be waiting
I just hope you know that you my toxic inspiration, uhmm