The Grey

Some things are best left to slowly fade away
Others are better to rinse and then repeat
The latter three pose apathy if you're just feigning happily
Ever and after
You'll suffer again

I have been feeling so grey
For leaving this behind
Collateral seems to plague the blank space convoluting my mind
I crawled out from under the table Inspecting my wounds and inner thigh
Lying would say that I'm stable

I'm unable to breathe in all my trampled pride
And exhale my malleable inside
I am becoming unable to be saved unscathed from this
Looking within I tried for hours to shake my inner ties with hatred
In this nature I feel so ambiguous

I just can't control myself
Weathered from absent health
And restraint from the shelf in the shed

I just can't control myself
Medicate under stars and in stealth
These trees beckon me to start afresh and turn a leaf

Watching my wounds divide
Stranded here helpless while you decide if my being can withstand this fable
That was sold as prosperous
Looking within I tried for hours to sever my inner ties with hatred
In this nature I feel so ambiguous

I console myself
As I lay on the floor
I realise now that I am innocent
Nothing more
The wind outside it rocks me to sleep
I find beauty in my deepest dreams
They paint a picture that I shouldn't live here
So why do I stay
I don't know why I stay
They paint a picture that I shouldn't live here
So why do I still stay
I don't know why I stay
They paint a picture that I shouldn't live here
So why do I still stay

Watching my wounds divide
Stranded here helpless while you decide if my being can withstand this fable
That was sold as prosperous
Looking within I tried for hours to sever my inner ties with hatred
In this nature I feel so ambiguous