Fadeout

I'm anxious, waiting only for the fadeout
Can't sleep I don't know how it's gonna play out
If I had it in me I would try
I would be doing it, doing right by now
But my mouth is shut
(mhh)

I'm dizzy getting myself off the bed now
And if I'm honest I could really use a hand
I pray this is the worst it's gonna get
And I'll be doing, oh, doing just fine
If I make it out
(mhh)

Spin me round
I'm drowning inside my body
Talk me down
Nobody sees what I see

I'm busy working on my mental health now
If I'm not perfect I can only let myself down
They said that I'd be better in a year
Just need to wait it out, wait it out
But I've lost my mind
(mhh)

Spin me round
I'm drowning inside my body
Talk me down
Nobody sees what I see

I can't take it
I can't fake it
I can't strip myself down
I'm underwhelmed when I'm alone
And overwhelmed when I'm not
These walls around me have me cornered
Frozen right on the spot
Hate all this shit that I bought
Want all the things that I'm not
Seems I can't help but analyze
All of this pain that I got
Are these fears even my own?
Why am I stuck in these thoughts?
I'm spitting fire
In denial
Guess I've lost the plot
Can't control my own mind
I try to leave me behind

I'm anxious, waiting only for the fadeout
Can't sleep I don't know how it's gonna play out
If I had it in me I would try
I would be doing it, doing right by now



Credits
Writer(s): Jamila Awad
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