True Love

You know
Love is an incredible thing
And we don't know love
Like we should
We always talk about
'I have unconditional love'
Unconditional love is
We don't even know it
Because if a person stops
Stimulating us
We stop loving them
Your not interesting to talk to anymore
Goodbye

True love
It shouldn't be this hard
Just make up your mind
Do you love me or not
And spare my soul
From a broken heart
It ain't fair
How your picking and choosing
I feel like I'm losing I hate being last
But lemme just hush
Not kick up a fuss
Cause I know that
You've been through shit and it's hard

I sat down and took her pain
And wrote her a list of things
That'll help
But when it was me
That was needing help
Didn't care about no one only herself
A fragile heart beginning to melt
The 5 months they messed
With my brain deteriorated
My mental health
I was in desperate need of help
But I didn't get none only had myself

For 5 months I was on my own
To everyone else didn't seem like that
Cause she act for the crowd
Try take my throne
And most days she was on my phone Tryna find these hoes
That I don't even know
She found two girls
From back in the day
But they got left back like Ashley Cole

They took my phone
Deleted the number
From then man it
Started going under
They told me that
They'll be my lighting but disappeared
When they heard my thunder
Sat in my room
And I started to wonder
I don't think this shits
True love cah Im going through
Endless pain and suffer
I think then right there
Is the moment I realised that
We were star crossed lovers

She then asked me a question
She said can I have a boy best friend
I said fuck no
Man I'd rather die
Than let that slide
Cause I know how it ends
She said please man
It ain't that deep and
You already know
That he's just my friend
I said alright cause
I don't wanna argue
But deep down I was feeling dead

I made a mistake
I knew that I shoulda said
No but I still said yes
Creating my fate
Hallucinations are part of the game
I could not take it I went insane
The toxic love infected my brain
I know damn well that
I should've just left
I was blind in love
So I blindly stayed

My bros in my ear
Telling me it ain't lasting
I told them nah nah
She'll change just looked at me
And they started laughing
I had her account
But I never logged in cause
Me I was way too busy just grafting
When I logged in
I saw that her cousin
Was calling me ugly
And she was just laughing

Next think you know
Got a text on snap
She's telling me that
It ain't gonna work
I knew that it was gonna end
Like that so i took that shit
As a learning curve
Didnt hurt as much
So I guess that it worked
I still got back
With the same damn girl
After all that shit
Man i did not learn
I hopped in a car
That was filled with love
But little did I know
I took the wrong turn

They say love is game
Well I guess it's a losing game
Been so many times
It's fucked with my brain
Deteriorated my mental state
I struggle to love
And I struggle to trust
I once had a heart
But it turned into dust
I kept going back
And I kept getting hurt
I was there for the love
She was there for the lust

After the first time
That I got broke
My bros told me
That this won't last
The car that was filled
With love can't function
Leaving me with a broken heart
A broken car so I can't go far
I knew that I would not die in your arms
My bros told me
Just push through the pain
I looked at my bro and I said I can't